What I've Learned in 2008

I've been thinking about all the things I have learned this year and thought that sharing them with you would be a good post for the first day of 2009. So, here are some of them, in no particular order.



1. Garbage disposals are made to dispose of potato peelings. Perhaps ours is just broke.

2. Homeschooling really isn't so stressful, speaking only from the kindergarten perspective.

3. Jonathan can't have artificial colors, preferably nothing artificial, and definitely NOT Hardee's!

4. I can work Manly Man's drill!

5. Making window treatments isn't as daunting of a task when you do it The Nester's way.

6. Jacob is a total wild man...I already knew it, but it became way evident this year.

7. Three numbers on the scale don't make me a better person, or a worse person. They are just numbers.

8. Manly Man loves my hips...especially after having two children!

9. I have great calves, and I can say it and believe it. (I am not trying to sound boastful....I am learning to focus on the things that I really like about myself so that I don't beat myself of for other things.)

10. I need Jesus in all the little things (as well as the big) way more than I realized.

11. I can make bread. (Thanks Teesa!)

12. I can't get healthy without God.

13. Manly Man is so forgiving.

14. No matter how many times I ask people not to over do on gifts, they will do as they please.

15. My boys have learned a lot of habits from me...some good, some not so good.

16. I enjoy running.

17. God wants more of me and more for me.

18. I miss the city of Greensboro way more that I realized. I thought I just missed the people, but I really miss the city also!

19. I really enjoy Andrew Peterson's music.

20. Having friends is one of the most amazing and wonderful blessings!

21. Having friends takes a lot of work.

22. Vitamins really do help.
23. Blogging is a great outlet, but can become consuming.
24. Manly Man and I really need regular dates or nights away from our sweet boys.



So, just a snippet of what I have learned this year.

New things are coming for me and my family in 2009. Stay tuned!

December, In Pictures

I am feeling totally stressed and totally overwhelmed! I can honestly say I haven't enjoyed this Christmas season at all this year. I have missed Jesus this year. So, I won't post until after Friday. I am taking time for my Savior, and my family. Until then...here are a few pictures from this season so far.

Much love and many blessings!

That's Unique!

My mom sent me this picture...called it a redneck tank top.
Do you see what it is?

More Post-Thanksgiving Updates, Part 2

Here is Jonathan's gingerbread house...he had a great time. It was really hard for him not to eat the candy...I had other candy with us to help out with that. Great job Jonathan!

More Post-Thanksgiving Updates

Here is Jacob with his new gun that Manly Man got him. He loves it. We have a tradition of building gingerbread houses, usually on Thanksgiving day, but that didn't happen this year. We were a day late for Jacob's, and two days late with Jonathan's. Jakey did a great job! I love having these in my house each year as part of our decorations!

A Hunting We Will Go

Jonathan got to go on his first dove hunt on Friday! Manly Man took him and he had a great time! He even went into the field to "fetch" (his words) two doves that Manly Man shot. Jonathan said, "they are bloody!" But, he did it! He picked them up and carried them back to Manly Man. My little boy. Just a year ago, he went deer hunting for the frist time. (He isn't carrying a shot gun or rifle, just his toy gun!) Jacob got to go to Waffle House with Manly Man, get a new toy gun, and go to the park. Then he got to hang with me. Stay tuned for details!

FYI

Manly Man updated his blog today with some potentially wonderful news. Check it out!

Check This Out!

Went into Target tonight to get some Christmas lights, (that is another story), and this is what I saw when I walked in the door!

Are you kidding me?!?!?!?

I'm Not Too Late!

It's been a while huh? We had friends in town for Sunday through Wednesday last week and had a blast! It was really fun to be with Adam and Kendall, college friends, and their baby, Crawford. The boys loved having him here too! We ate yummy food, had a great time hanging out and catching up on things. Adam killed his first deer with Manly Man that Monday and we were all REALLY excited for him.

This Thanksgiving was a very unique one for us. We had friends over, instead of family. It was so much fun! We ate lots of great food, and I didn't have to cook it all! Manly Man did fry the turkey again, and for one time a year, we can ignore ALL that grease! We went for an evening stroll after eating with our friends and then had pie! It was wonderful!

We had great plans of getting the house decorated on Saturday, but the rain changed our plans. Sunday too. But, stay tuned for the happenings on Friday....

I Caved

I needed another pair of black shoes besides my high heel boots, so I bought these:

I held out for a long time buying Crocs, even though my kids have "moc crocs" and love them. I know understand the rage! They are so comfy and I am so thankful to have them! So, am I the last person to get them?
How many pairs of crocs have you owned?

You Must Be Kidding Me!!!

I took this picture out my van window this afternoon! I can't believe they are here already! Of course, if everything goes as planned, we will have one next Friday:)

Boys and Girls

I have really been struggling with understanding boys lately. They are so much more aggressive than girls, louder than girls, I think more talkative than girls too! I have one sister. No brothers. I love my boys, but I don't get them!

A few nights ago the boys were playing Nascar on our rug. Manly Man got under it so that he could be the hill...

After his turn was up, he asked me if I wanted to do it. I looked at him like he was crazy. I told him that I would lay on my tummy and let them drive cars on my back so I could pretend that I was getting a massage!

See boys and girls are different. Very different. I need to work on my "playing with the boys" skills. Thinking about getting the book Bringing Up Boys also, so I can understand them better.

Have any fun stories about boys and girls?

More Truth

As I got ready to go out to a nice dinner with Manly Man on Monday night, I went through the "I hate all my clothes" song. Are you familiar with that you? I am. All to well. It never ends well. It has even ended in a change of restaurant destinations because all I could fit were a pair of jeans, not very nice ones either.

Well Monday evening went a little differently. As I stood in front of the mirror, I became very frustrated with my turtleneck sweater because it made my big boobs (sorry if any guys are reading this!) look even bigger and it hit at a place in between my hips and waist that wasn't flattering. I started to nit pick at how it looked, how I looked, how I felt. All the while Manly Man had told me at least twice how beautiful and wonderful I looked. I felt a moment of truth flood into my heart. I said aloud, in the mirror, "I am a child of God and that alone is enough. I might have big boobs, but I am still a child of God. I won't nit pick anymore tonight." It felt great. I felt peaceful. And I didn't criticize any more. That night.

As I learn to lean wholly on the Lord I was confronted with hard truth this morning. I wrote that I wanted to be healthy for the Lord. I have written about that a lot on this blog. A lot! The Lord asked me a question this morning. He said, "Do you really want to be healthy for me, or do you just want to look good for the world and for yourself so that you 'feel' better about yourself?" (gulp.) I confessed to Him, that I use health as a disguise. I told Him the truth...that I just wanted to look good, to fit into a certain size, to weigh a certain number. I asked for forgiveness. I also asked Him to help me to be comfortable in my own skin.

The irony of it all...Jacob's verse in Cubbies, at Awana this week:

I am...wonderfully made.

Psalm 139:14

I do love that the Lord has a sense of humor, even though it doesn't always feel so funny!

My Kids NEED Your Help!

My boys are "sandwiched out." They can't take another sandwich for lunch. We've done the nugget thing too. Cheese quesadillas. Apples with peanut butter and crackers. Please help me come up with something new and maybe even fun to feed my kids! They would love it! Know that I don't really want to "cook" a lunch...heat up quick is OK but no major cooking allowed. So my question...
What do you feed your kids for lunch?

Humbling

Today is Manly Man's birthday! Happy Day Manly Man!

I arranged for Grandma and Papa to keep the boys last night so Manly Man and I could go on a date! He was so surprised when I asked him to get the stuff out of the back of the van (their pillows and suitcases)! We had a wonderful date...we went to dinner and a movie and then for coffee. It felt really weird not trying to rush home. It felt really weird getting ready for our date and not having children around. It was VERY quiet in our house yesterday afternoon. It was the first time in almost 4 years that we were in our house and the boys were not...almost 4 years! We so needed it!

We have been wanting to see Fireproof since we knew it was coming out, but actually making it to a movie is very hard! We are always interested in movies that have firefighting in it. From Manly Man's perspective, they did a good job, overall. There were a few things we noticed, but all in all, the fire scenes were good. We chuckled at the firehouse humor, and were grateful that the language was MUCH better than it tends to be in a "real" firehouse. Manly Man has to deal with hearing the foul mouths every time he is on duty. It is hard!

We wanted to see the movie for other reasons...it is a Christian done movie, and as a few folks have said, it was well done and not "cheesy." We have also had our fair share of hard things to deal with in our marriage over the last seven years. We learned about the movie when we were going through one of those patches. We have been having honest conversations a lot in the past few months, which have been good, but hard too. Manly Man asked me if I thought that I loved him well. My answer was immediate, "No." I thought that I didn't love him well because I wanted him to meet expectations that weren't fair, especially since he wasn't made to meet them, or even told about them from me! I have been struggling with that the past couple of weeks. While watching Fireproof, I felt the Lord stirring in my heart. I didn't love my husband well because I didn't love the Lord well. It was such a resounding chord in my heart, that I knew it was from the Lord, not the enemy trying to attack me. I cried through most of the movie. I cry thinking about it now. I think that the Lord has been using the past few weeks to soften my heart so that I could actually hear from him! How wonderful that He knew what needed to be done, so that I could be ready to hear the message that I needed. Me loving my husband doesn't come from me...it can only come from an overflow of the love of the Lord. I am humbled now at my need for Him...I always knew that I needed Him, but I thought I could do much of it on my own! It is my prayer that I can lean wholly on the Holy One, instead of just saying that I do.

I am waiting for some answers from the Lord. Perhaps as I do lean wholly, I will start to hear a few more answers!

Are you leaning wholly on the Lord?

On Trying to be Quiet, and Thankful

I'll start with the "thankful" first...just one. My sweet Jakey...every time, and I mean EVERY TIME you give him a kiss, he rubs it in! Seriously! Could he melt my heart anymore than he has? Check him out trying to be all bad!

I have been trying to be still. To be quiet. To be. That is really hard with boys inside the house. And nasty wet weather outside. It seems that I long to "be still and know" in the morning, but it keeps getting upset by the rising children or Manly Man heading out to work. Last Thursday, I actually felt wooed out of bed by a still, sweet, and ever so quiet whisper, to come and sit with Him. It was truly beautiful. To just sit with a cup of coffee and Jesus. I have been trying to stop rattling off my concerns and requests to the Lord, whether they be for others or my family, and trying to listen, to feel. I am not sure what I am hoping for...a stirring in my spirit towards something, an almost audible answer spoken to my heart, a passion to be revealed. I just feel strongly that for me, right now, I need to just sit and listen. For now. Not for later. Now.



I may continue to be quiet in the blog world, as it can be a bit of a distraction at times. Or, I may use this as a tool to work out the stirrings whenever they may come. But for now, I will be quiet.

Blessings to you. And thank you all for your wonderful encouragement in your comments to my previous post! You are awesome!

Passion

I guess I have been taking a blogging break, trying to figure out what to blog, why I blog, and should I change anything up on the blog. I don't really have any answers. I sometimes feel like there are too many irons in the fire. I don't like that feeling. It makes me feel like I am not doing any of them well. I just want to have one thing that I think..."I do that well...I enjoy that...that is my passion." Anyone else feel that way? When I was a little girl, I danced. I started when I turned 3 and didn't stop until I graduated from high school. It was my passion. I was pretty good at it too. Classically trained ballet. I still LOVE to go to the ballet, but don't ever get the chance. I stopped dancing in college because I realized that I was doing it for me and I didn't want that anymore. I wanted the Lord to be at the top of my list, and He wasn't. He was up there, but not number one. I don't feel like He has given me "permission" to dance, other than in my kitchen, since I was 18. I think He knows that I am too approval based to be able to dance and NOT have it become higher than He is.
I feel lost when I think about what my passion is now. Some people read, scrapbook, run, cook. That list is great. But there isn't anything that I am passionate about on that list. I have a tough time watching others get "into" what they love. It makes me feel, as my Granny would say, "blue." You know, just a little sad. Sad that I don't have that. I think that I am going to be adding it to my prayer list. Manly Man has been asking me for years what I am passionate about, what I love and I have never been able to answer him. Guess I should have added it years ago huh?
My question to you: what are you passionate about, and how did you find it?

Guess Who's Blogging?

Manly Man has started a blog...a business blog. He is a mortgage lender here in town, but can do loans in lots of states. Check out his blog and let him know if you need any help in the loan department! I have a link on the side bar, just in case you ever need to find him again!

Where We've Been, Part 4

Last Thursday night, we had Manly Man's parents up for dinner at our house to celebrate his mom's 60th birthday! Yep, two parties in less than a week! October and November are very big birthday months for both of our families! Grandma wanted a pie, so I made pumpkin (I don't eat it versus the pecan pie that I make and love to eat!!!). We had a yummy dinner and enjoyed a great game of Yahtzee also!

That brings us back to this week. School started back. Jonathan is officially a reader. We went to the beach and to Mellow Mushroom to celebrate that exciting development! We have had Awana and will be making peanut butter cookies tomorrow!


On a side note, Jonathan got his vest at Awana for reciting John 3:16! We watched through the window last night during their rec time and we so excited to see him running fast and coming in second during a game! I have never seen him so proud of himself! We were and are too Jonathan!

Holy Words Batman!

Check this out!!!

Where We've Been (ok, where I've been), Part 3

My mom is partly to blame for my absence from the blog world. She bought me this:

I really enjoyed the book. I won't say much about it, except that I REALLY want to re-read it when I can really absorb it. I'll probably have a pen or highlighter, or both, in my hand. I believe that the book is a tool that could change your relationship with the Lord, or bring you into one, if you don't have one already. That good. In my opinion. Anyone else read it? Want to share your thoughts? Email me.

Where We've Been, Part 2

After returning from the Queen City, we finally got to do something that we have been talking about doing for a while! There are a couple of beaches that you can drive out on down here, which can be tons o' fun! Even though the water is too cool to swim in now, in my opinion, we drove out on the north end of Carolina Beach and let the boys play and grilled our dinner! We almost didn't get the grill lit because the wind was a bit strong, but we finally got help from the folks fishing a little ways away from us. The boys had a great time, and so did we! We can't wait to do it again!

Note to self: Get Manly Man to take a few pictures to prove that I am actually present on the outings that I mention!

Where We've Been, Part 1

We haven't fallen off the face of the earth yet, I am happy to report! I needed a week off from school so my brain could un-fry itself! We had a very busy week so, I decided to make it Fall Break. (Yet another reason I am loving homeschooling!) Our first stop was to the Queen City for my dad's, aka Daddy B, 60th birthday! We had fun and my boys got to see their only cousin...he is the cute boy you see that you don't recognize!

Thursday Thought

At Bible Study this morning, my pastor's wife, who teaches our study, gave us an amazing illustration regarding crucifying the flesh. I had to share...

"If we try to crucify our flesh, by ourselves, we can get one hand nailed up on the cross, but how will we get the other hand nailed up there?"

The point being, WE can't crucify our flesh, only the Holy Spirit can do that!

AMEN!!!

This is how I feel...

No there isn't anything wrong really. We are just busy and my brain feels fried! Remember that commercial...

"This is your brain...this is your brain on drugs"?....

NO...I am not on drugs (smile here!), just a little fried...homeschoolin' is tough! Funny, I'm not physically tired...thank the Lord for that.

Perhaps next week will be fall break!!!

Thankful Thursday

Just two things today. First, after dropping the boys off at Awana for the first time last night,

We:

Got a little of this:

and one of these:

Who knew Awana would make a great date night for us? So thankful!

Also thankful for my Assets, that helped me get in a pair of jeans so I could stay a little dry during our "coastal low" that we are experiencing.

Fruit Roll-ups, At Home!!

Found this recipe after a friend suggested I look for one on the web. Who knew you could make fruit roll-ups at home! I am trying to eliminate artificial coloring from my children's world to see if there is a difference in their behavior. I think Ainsely's advice to do that is actually helping. The problem is when you take them somewhere that is going to serve a snack. So, thinking I might try these and see how they go over in my home! Don't they look yummy?

Look Who Moved In To The Neighborhood!

We are the first town to get a Harris Teeter in Brunswick County! And it is two miles from my house! Now, this could be a bad thing for us. They are kind of pricey in my opinion...but when there is a VIC special, it is usually better than Wally World! So, heading to the new HT today, just to say I went!

Dilemma

Allow me to introduce my dilemma...



My 11 year old neighbor decided to feed this seemingly stray cat some milk...in my back yard! Now the cat seems to think that our home is his home!
OK, contrary to what my boys believe, I do not hate cats! They are just not my favorite. Manly Man is allergic and I have a feeling that at least one of my boys would be as well. I don't want an inside cat at all...liter boxes? No thanks.
The big problem is that this cat used to be some one's. That someone decided it would be a good idea to declaw the cat, front and back paws! And then let the cat out. He can't catch food. He can't defend himself. He can't climb a tree if he needs to! He is so scrawny. I feel like the humane thing to do is to feed it. But we all know what happens when you feed a stray. Manly Man and I are at a loss for what to do. Any ideas?

I Can't Believe I Let Him Do This!!!

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for
...bubble wrap (getting to jump on it is a great reward for boys!).
...Manly Man being able to go back to the office today.
...Manly Man's father paying to have the transmission rebuilt in our 1995 Jeep.
...Amish Friendship bread starter that I was gifted today.
...Jacob sleeping all night last night (no potty wake ups for him, or me because I hear him).
...finally figuring out some things that help Jonathan with school better.
...coffee
...eating well, so I don't even feel the need to lay down during the day!
...reconnecting with friends from a ways back
...having Jesus.

It's Starting Again!

Guess what it is? Not the fall allergies, they have been here for a couple of weeks. Not the fall colds, they started on Friday. Any guesses?

NBC's Biggest Loser starts back tonight. I am not one to write much about TVshows, but I do love this one and have for a while. I think Jillian would kick my butt! I think Bob would to, but in a different way. I don't think I would survive one workout with them, but it would make me strong that is for sure. My only gripe with the show is that they don't talk enough about nutrition. With that said, still love it and will be on my couch, with my bowl of, I mean bottle of water watching away! (We don't even have anything to eat a bowl of!)

OK?

I thought that I should maybe change the blog a little since I do a lot of posting about myself (how self-centered can I be???), not just my boys. I also mention Manly Man every once in a while. (Love you Manly Man and glad you are finished with training for a while!!!) So, welcome to the Sellers' Express! I found a cute train background, but I didn't like that the center part where the posts were had a design on it and it made it hard to read the text. So, I opted for no train background, but got something new anyway. My old background had some reading issues I think, so please let me know if the font colors are OK...can you read the text OK? The picture is over a year old!!! Maybe the next time we get on a train (ha ha) we can get a new picture. This is from the train at Tweetsie.

Must run, my little engineers are fighting!

Hang in there

Working on a new layout...please be patient with me!

Praying For the Gulf Coast

Just wanted to take a minute to remind everyone to pray for those in the line of Ike. It looks like it could be bad...they are warning like they did with Katrina. We are praying here for your safety, and that Ike will settle himself down, a lot! How cool would that be in Ike just "fell apart" in the Gulf of Mexico? Could you imagine the weather forecasters trying to "explain" that one away?

We Will Not Forget

We were all touched by the horrible attack on our country seven years ago this morning. I had just finished teaching my first class and was walking up to the library for my second class. The drama teacher stopped me in the hall and said the trade center had been hit by a plane. I walked up to steps to the library, not really grasping the depth of what had just happened. When I walked in to the library, I understood. I immediately called Manly Man who had just gotten home that morning from the fire station. I told him to turn on the TV and asked him if his father was flying (his dad was a pilot for US Airways at the time and flew to New York some, in those big jumbo jets). He said no and got off the phone. My students and I sat there, glued to the TV. I watched so much of the coverage in the following days. I didn't want to feel numb. I wanted to feel the pain with my country, with it's people. I wanted to remember that day. I do remember. It struck so close to home, with Manly Man being a firefighter, my father-in-law a pilot, and my sister-in-law having flown past the Twin Towers, literally minutes before they were hit.

To those whose lives were forever changed, I have not forgotten. My family has not forgotten. You are in our thoughts and prayers. Your loved one was a hero.

Wordless Wednesday

Chocolate Chip Cookie Confession

I major heart chocolate chip cookie dough! In a big way. Or at least I did. So, about 5 or 6 years ago, while at Sam's Club, I had a brilliant idea to buy some cookie dough to keep on hand whenever we had friends over. I wanted to be a good hostess and have something to serve my guests. I don't know where I got that from. If anyone knew about my plan for goodies and looked in that 5 pound tub about a month later would have thought that Manly Man and I were the COOLEST people ever in the 'Boro! Man, that cookie dough was at least half gone, in only 30 days! That is a lot of cookies!!! Which means a lot of friends!!!
What is really meant is that I was a closet compulsive eater! It was there. I ate it. Raw. By the spoonful! When home alone. While Manly Man was in the bathroom. Whenever. Thinking back now, I think that this is when I first started to realize that I was a closet over-eater or maybe this is about the time that it started. Hmmm....
When I finally confessed to Manly Man what I had done, he suggested that I throw it away. Do what???? I was NOT going to waste money! But then I realized later that I needed to do just that and did. So, me and chocolate chip cookie dough...a very bad love-to-eat-you-hate-the-pounds-you-cause relationship bloomed!
Fast forward to yesterday. With the looming TS Hanna headed our way on Friday (by the way, we did fine...no problems whatsoever...pray for those in the path of Ike though!) the munchies set in. I got the chips covered. I almost got the sweets covered too, but decided not to. Then Manly Man went to the store and I suggested something sweet...you know, so I could blame him for it being in the house. He came home with the ginormous roll of chocolate chip cookie dough. We made a few cookies. Yesterday, I ate some raw cookie dough. Not a lot here, but enough for about 3 cookies. During that last slice, I noticed something. It makes my tongue feel weird. Really weird. Like prickly or something. I can honestly say that I don't like raw chocolate chip cookie dough! What an amazing blessing, for my health and for honoring the Lord!
Now, if I could just not like them baked!

Quick Update

We are hunkering down for TS Hanna, potentially Hurricane Hanna here in SE North Carolina. I will update later to let you know how we faired. A tropical storm might not seem like much, or even a cat one hurricane for that matter, but sustained winds of 70 miles an hour are nothing to sneeze at. I am sure we will be fine, and I am thankful that Manly Man won't be called back to work until at least Saturday afternoon, if at all.

And, I am feeling a little better since my last post. Thank you for your prayers!

Caro, you can try to call. If I can talk I will, if not, I won't. How profound right? Be safe driving...you will be having some wind, girl.

Wordless Wednesday

Please say a prayer for me. I am really having a tough day and just kind of want to walk out of the door for a few hours. But that would require me to leave the children home alone. I am afraid they might burn the house down while I was gone. Questioning our decision to home school today. A few moments of questioning being a mom. Please say a prayer for me.

Labor Day!

We really know how to live it up here! We even had school on Labor Day! Oh the horror! Call the police! See how exciting our day is? Manly Man is at work, so I figured we might as well have school and then play. The play was good. The boys have played really well together. School, not so great today. I was really frustrated with Jacob today because he was distracting Jonathan A LOT! I have to find something different to do with him. Maybe I need to start playing with him first, and then doing some school work with Jonathan. Any ideas of what to do with a distracting 3 year old???

PS...so excited that I finally figured out how to successfully post a video!!!

The Birth of a Train Ice Cream Cake

I must really love this my oldest boy! This truly was a labor of love. There are a lot of things I would do differently, and I think that I hope that I have a chance to do it again! Jonathan said "Thanks Mommy for making me an ice cream train cake. I'm going to love it!". That made it all worth it!

(You can click on the picture and it will enlarge it so you can see it better.)

Grab The Tissues

My mom emailed me this video today. I have seen this team highlighted on the Ironman coverage on TV. I leave you with one question...is there something that, if you child dreamed of being able to do but couldn't, that you wouldn't find a way to make happen?

Happy Birthday Sweet Baby J

Manly Man (that would be your dad) and I love you very much and hope that you have the best day ever! Your birth was our second best ever! I came up with "Sweet Baby J" when you were a few days old. We continued with that name and eventually shortened it to "J." Then Jacob came along and "J" was a little confusing for you I think. You are still my Sweet Baby J. I feel all gushy thinking about your birthday. You didn't want to come out...you were snug as a bug. But when you made your appearance into the world, you came out in style, with the coolest hair ever! It was highlighted and spiky! I instantly fell in love with you. What mother doesn't? You were really cute though. So cute that I was almost a little nervous about your brother being born! (Love you Jakey!) You melted my heart instantly. When we picked your name, we wanted you to be a loyal friend, just as Jonathan was to David. I can see already that you will love fiercely and will fight when an injustice is done, to you or someone you know. You have that passion in you. And so young. It must frustrate you at times, that you don't know how to handle it all right now...but you will. God will use you, if you will let him.

I could snuggle up to you any time, even though you hate it. I love that when you are sick, only I can make it some what better...no one else. I love the way you tell me that you love me. I love it when you hug me. I hope that one day, you will look at me with a great sense of love and a little pride.
Now, on to the embarrassment...

Happy Fifth Jonathan! We love you!